Monday, January 29, 2018

How long does it take to be worthy?

How long does it take to be worthy?

There was that time when it was her special day and everyone came to celebrate her, or so she thought. The hall was big, the caterers paid on credit, the dances choreographed and rehearsed to perfection. For only the second time in her life she splurged to have her hair done professionally. Or at least semi professionally at the local beauty college as the actual salon would have just been too much. And the dress. She absolutely loved the dress. For the very first time the whole day was going to be all for her and they'd finally find reason to praise her.

And yet.

Everyone has their flaws. She knew that. More importantly she knew hers all to well as they had been made abundantly clear since the day she could comprehend language. Stop letting her eat so much they'd say. Tell her to stop reading and start running. Has she watched that exercise video we got her? She could be so pretty, if only.

But not this day. She'd basically starved herself for weeks. When her mother shouted at her for not eating any rice she just shrugged it off with an excuse for not feeling well. She knew she looked the best she ever had, if only.

It was not enough. It would never be enough.


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