Monday, March 31, 2008

Faceless Sex.

Once upon a time a young girl thought she was in love. And while all her better judgment told her that it couldn’t be for reasons including but not limited to: she was too young, too naïve, too immature, too incapable of fully understanding what it really meant to be in love, she felt it nonetheless. And it felt amazing. However, she was not the only one telling herself she was too young, too naïve, and etcetera. Her friends and family happened to be quite open with their opinions regarding her feelings for, what she thought was, the wonderful man in her life. The smart girl that she was, she disregarded everyone’s judgments placed on her. For she knew that other peoples’ judgments were solely due to their ignorance in regards to her relationship. Lucky her, he loved her just as much if not more. Everyday with him felt like the best day in the world and for once she was reminded of how happiness felt. It felt wonderful.
Because the young girl loved this man, although it went against everything she was taught in regards to morals and values, she gave this man all of her. The rationale being that since they were in love, it seemed silly to not make love. So they did. And like loving him, it was wonderful. But somewhere down the line, the man no longer loved the young girl as much as she loved him. And eventually, he simply no longer loved her at all and decided it was best to move on. Needless to say, the young girl was desperately heart broken. He was her first love and first heart ache. The feelings of happiness and elation were quickly replaced with those of sorrow, and she began to question whether the man had ever loved her at all. She asked herself the questions we all do when we’re faced with heart break. And she resolved that she would no longer be led to believe that she was in love with any man. She would no longer let herself be able to fall in love in order to avoid the terrible hurt that comes when it inevitably fades away. But because the days got long and the nights got lonely, and male attention was fabulously self-validating, she began to date again. Never willing to lay her heart down, she simply lay herself down in order to receive the stunning gratification that comes from being with a man. And while it was not exactly the same as when she had made love to the man she thought she was in love with, she was nonetheless more than satisfied following each of her conquests.
And so it went that the young girl, who grew to be a woman, lived her life. She did love again, for it was not that she made herself incapable of such an emotion, it was just she was more cautious. But as for laying with men, there seemed to be nothing wrong with it. She simply enjoyed company, and she enjoyed sex. Did she never even give a damn about a few of the men she was with, and on occasion even forget their names? Of course. Did people judge her because of such an attitude? Of course. Because just as when she was in love with the man, other peoples’ judgments were solely due to their ignorance in regards to her situation. But the smart woman that she was simply disregarded other peoples’ judgments. Because laying with men became so casual it allowed her to better determine when it really was love that she felt for a man. But when it was without love, it was simply uncomplicated, convenient, faceless sex. And that is completely fine.

**Also see: http://inreaction.wordpress.com/2008/04/03/faceless-sex/
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1 comment:

kia mak said...

^^ real talk
i like it. and mine was unfinished because my life is unfinished lately. hopefully one day i'll be able to write things complete...when i am?


anyways. let's pick a night of rush to do something after. thursday, preferably.